Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Villanelle of the Pathetic

My bleeding sclera hides from blindness
My brain spreads clean and wry
My heart hurts from wanting kindness.

You have mastered the art of goodness
You have burned goodbyes
My bleeding sclera embraces blindness

I have seined the moving lightness
On their shadow forms rely
My heart hurts from wanting kindness

An inch of rain and spit as pittance
That’s all it takes for me to cry
My bleeding sclera turns from blindness

Shakespearean forms catch form’s loveliness
He has made men cry
Their hearts hurt from wanting kindness.

I hate fragility in trite-ful loneliness
I hate it when men cry
My bleeding sclera hurts from blindness
My heart hurts from wanting kindness.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Elegy - written in a sofa graveyard.

You don't get it
You're always the same
Underdressed and
Underspent - and I'm kind of
like you
But a little less sure about
being uncertain.

What happened?
You don't remember anything
Or you do but you remember
it so so so differently than
I remember it
or how I thought
you would remember our
twelve-hour-straight-screams
About The Fountainhead, sex, Kurosawa
predetermination, your brother,
my mother -
and we found the secret passageways
in the basement and through the roofs
And we climbed up next to the
gargoyles and found suicide and
lovetape letters.

One said:

You remind me of three people.
One, because of your command over the kind and lost.
Two, because you take advantage of it.
Three, because you don't care.

Another said:

It's cold here.


You were willing to ask questions
And clean up my ginger ale puke.
I guessed how many items were
in your fridge - minimalism.

I told you that you were a genius
You said you were not.
You said I was beautiful
I said I was not.

This is terrible, the end
of a findingship.
I can't do it anymore.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Cimeon the Centipede

Cimeon the Centipede was a warrior by sunlight. He knew the dawns and sunsets more than any other creature in the world. The 6 am light came slowly and quickly – when he blinked, it was gradual. When he closed his eyes, he heard the change - the woooo-woo-woo disappearing into the silence of a terrible, communal mourning. The white stillness always brought terror, and terror, thought Cimeon, was when immediate death seemed too far away.

To Cimeon, everything was white. It did not matter whether Cimeon kept his eyes open or shut – either way he could not see a thing. Cimeon did not know he was blind because he did not know about sight – seeing with the eyes, that is.

I am ready. I am ready with my mulch hat and each of my hairy arms armed with swiftness. Cimeon was a Centitrist. He took care of the wounded when the trembles came. The old and the too-young and the cocoons and the fireflies – they were the ones who suffered the most. Cimeon was agile. He could curl into spirals and circles and, if so inclined, he could form a perfect rhombus. He was gifted in that way – flexible and lovely.

There was nothing to do but wait. There was no preparation. When it struck two dongs from a far away hollow sound, Cimeon felt the quick numbness appear. Each time, he never knew if it would let go its circle hold, not until the moment when he moved one leg into the green darkness, and the rest of him followed.

There was nothing wrong with this living because he knew of nothing else. And though he could get ulcers, depression, high blood pressure, heart attacks, and chronic diarrhea from the level of stress any Centitrist must constantly encounter, Cimeon was, after all, only a very small centipede.

He heard the first quiet tone like the sound of a stick beating on a blade of grass.
“I feel like I will die soon,” said Cimeon.
The drumming stopped
“Then I will play your funeral march,” replied a voice.
The sound of his laugh was like the sound of snow – silent and windy and cold. Chaool dropped his stick and his blade of grass and walked to the head of Cimeon.
“How silly of you, I thought the mourning was coming.”
“Exactly my intention.”
“You are a boob.”
“I am a Nuamh.” Said Chaool, wiggling his antennae
“Then to your duties, you boobish Nuamh.”
“Tut, tut, tut,” said Chaool, and whistling in three part harmony, ran away on his two peach feet.

Cimeon crawled towards the Sight. The Sight was where all the grass creatures gathered, over the bodies of the dead. Here there was a deprivation of color – Cimeon had insisted along with the elder creatures – that there would be nothing but green. Green, said the other creatures, was a peaceful color, a color of satiated thirst and of sleep and of choruses produced by shifting mud. Cimeon imagined green to be somewhat like the sound of a quiet crunch or the feeling of the smooth, deep line of the snail’s mark. In any case, green seemed reasonable so green it was – anything to ease the constant horror.

They waited for the trembles and formed assembly lines, that ended with a Cintritist. Cimeon’s line was a little different. It was a spiral. But they had to, in some way, distinguish the Emergency unit from the rest of the injury lines
Cimeon, turned to a nearby Nuamh. “Have you seen Chaool?”
“A minute ago.”
“He must return soon before soon.”
“I think so.”
Cimeon was not expecting them for at least another minute, which was enough time to slowly crawl home, fix a meal, and crawl back. Time ran more slowly for the centipedes and the Nuamhs than the Wonzingers because the Wongzingers were at least three times the size of the centipedes. It made sense, for time to be relevant and regarded based on size, how much a creature moved or could move, or how much energy it produced or how quickly and deeply one could run.

One minute was plenty of time for Cimeon to stitch up twenty centipede legs, two worm worts, and six dalungeers. Cimeon looked at the sky, then at the grass, then at the lines and thought, indeed, now one minute has passed and no Chaool. He thought about going to find him and decided against it, reasoning that his spiral would lose their confidence without their leader in position.

He was right – most of the Nuamhs were cowards, but not Chaool. Half of him was of a different birthright and perhaps that had given him his presence and future. Cimeon enjoyed internalizing his thoughts and forming an inner dialogue.
“Hello Cimeon”
“Hello Cimeon.”
“I had the most lovely brine today.”
“Is your mother still alive?”
“Almost seven days old.”
“lovely. Pieces of books are lovely.”
"Do we hear that, Cimeon?"
“Yes, It is time.”

From somewhere far above the tallest blade and far beyond the bending bush came the call. It sounded something like, “reeeeeeeccccceeeeeeeessssssss!!!!”
Then the trembles came.

Monday, December 1, 2008

A Song of the Willows

here it is
six plus days
when wimping
and whining
will not
fill up
our day
with
walloping
waywizer whompings.

Here we are
waygone we are
bygones we were
wayward we were
wayward we are
whencesoever, whereinsoever
all whomsoever fell down
our wherret whifflery trap?

Winward we roam
yet still at home
with whingers and fingers
and winglets.
Made in two
yet snapped into
windlestraw, weed
woolsack
and woolsey.

Here goes our song:
wither we have gone
whether have we won
we have surely
most assuredly
Stayed planted.